Tuesday, December 25, 2012
I think I need to change the way I am, because I feel like I am missing out on a lot of experiences. I know that they are actually meaningless experiences in the grand scheme of things, but all the same, I still want them. I need to go out and get them. Christmas this year has been really, really quiet. And I have been holed up in my room pretty much for the last 3 days. I need to get out, honestly. But I don't know what to do. I am so bored but I have no idea how to stave off this lethargy. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I know of someone who would love to have this luxury of having this day free. And here I am wasting it. I sound whiny, I know this. But I have nowhere else to let this off my chest. One of my favourite bands is coming to Singapore and I can't watch them. Actually a number of my favourite bands were here this year, and I could not go at all. I know I could have found a way if I wanted to, but I've been this way for so long that I don't know how to enjoy certain things without feeling guilty. I've got a hoarder's mentality about it. It has stop. I have to stop. I have to let things go.Labels: Maps
