Monday, April 16, 2012
I remember how I used to describe that I was mutating, like there was an imperceptible change that I could feel. I don't feel that anymore. Maybe it's because the growing up is all done now. Maybe the rapid changes made it more keen. But those haven't happened for a while now. So I guess that I've hit a plateau.
I also remember in Social Psychology that proximity is important in a lot of our human relationships. Makes sense, intuitively. We're friends with the select few out the many people whom we see every day. We talk to the neighbours who live closest to us and not the ones who are a little far off. We fall in love with someone in our every day lives. It's all about the shortest distance for us. Let's face it; distance increases the amount of effort we'd have to put in to maintain those relationships. The greater the distance, the greater the effort, vice versa. It works out (unlike most long-distance relationships). The more you don't see someone, the less you'd feel for them; out of sight and out of mind. I think this is somewhat true. Imagine how much you felt for certain people in your class previously or whatever group you were in. Do you still feel the same way, that intensely, about them now? That is not to say that you don't entirely care about them. It's just that it's not the same. And it isn't.
Rationalising. Again. It's what I do to make it through moments that would make gaping holes in me and the fantasies I harbour. It's never going to happen if not by design. The fates are just not going to help us.
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