Thursday, February 16, 2012
Maybe Yishun isn't so bad after all. Or maybe it's the ulu area we're living at. And it's kind of nice the way the place looks at night - devoid of people and the glow of the streetlights hiding the flaws you'd see in the day time. On several occasions, I've even had sightings of schoolmates/classmates. But that doesn't mean anything, because I'll pretend that I didn't see them. Always the way it's been.
Oddly, it feels like we've been here more than a month when it's only been several weeks. Plus the grandmother is back here. It's so predictable how we relate to each other whenever she comes here. It's all black or white. There can never be any shade of grey. Same goes for the aunt. Cut from the same bolt, honestly. Family angst.
Crapweek starts next week.
Talking about school, I fear it has changed the way I think forever. Psychology and all the other stuff I've learnt have completely shattered any rose-coloured illusions I might have had before. When I see these generic quotes/slogans about life/love/relationships/human nature, it just seems like utter bullshit to me. It is not cynicism. That's far too simple. It's like I cannot give a conclusive answer to anything because the abstract is too probabilistic. To talk about any issue, do you know how many factors you'd have to consider? And stating anything so simply and conclusively is just too naive and one-sided. Truly, with the knowledge we've been given, it's hard to look at anything the same way again. Undeniably altered.
By the way, I keep having conversations with you in my head. Materialise please.
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