Monday, July 25, 2011
I have changed: I don't need you now the way I did before. And it has transformed us, though I'm not saying that other factors didn't play a part too. I like/hate how we are sometimes. But right now, I am hating it. It feels so utterly transient. Like there's nothing profound about it, the way it should be when we've put a label on it. What's the point of the label then? Should we just get rid of the label and leave all the extraneous emotions out of whatever it is we're in? The desire to pick your brain is so tantalising, just so I'll finally get the answers I want. Fucking unrealistic wants. There's always this idea that I shouldn't get in too deep, but what is a relationship without attachment? Maybe it's because I am so aware of how fast things can go south, that that thought is constantly lurking somewhere in my mind. Do less, think less, care less. Be indifferent and don't believe anything. This cynicism is kinda disappointing. I am no better than before. Nothing amazes me anymore. It's a funk. I wanna walk around invisible. Get rid of everything in the past and go some place else.Labels: last bloody warning
