I miss having Children's Day. All the stuff we'd get from the teachers and the school. Plus it was nice to think that we matter as little people. That's why there's no Adult Day or anything. The power trips are already screwing up the world, why celebrate them huh?

The Good Wife is not bad. Another law show (why the fascination?) with a slightly different twist. And each episode when the show's title comes on, all I think about is Raj from BBT saying something about how the Good Wife is crying! Why are the most useless things I know the most salient in my memory?

If there wasn't any guilt, I think I'd be able to sleep 24 hours. Like literally not wake up other than to pee. I don't know why there's this weariness that goes done to the bones. I'm at the point where I am not feeling things anymore I guess. But today there was a doozy piece of news. Twice this year, I've had friends lose their parents. It made me want to hug and see my mom. And I thought about my dad. Like I know that I don't go to see him and things, but I have always felt some sort of comfort in the fact that he is still alive. Losing him wouldn't exactly be devastating, but it would be heartbreaking, with a deep sense of loss for the things that could have been.

I feel really insignificant.