Friday, August 27, 2010
It's going to be the end of the 3rd week of school. Damn. I think I am still shaking off the vestiges of my obscenely long and mindless holiday. I don't know if it's the effects of aging or it's just me, but I am a little worried that details and other information are eluding me. For example, while taking notes in lecture today, in the midst of writing, I couldn't remember what the prof said even though I had looked up and listened before taking it down. Plus I think I am losing hair and going bald. Do you think it's related? (And trust me, it's not paranoia or me looking too deep into it). I feel so....decrepit all of a sudden. Especially during today's tutorial. I think I messed up way too many parts of the brain structures. And I was sure that I was right for some of them. URGH. I feel like I am coming unhinged by all these worrisome issues. I am ranting right now, but I need to. Very desperately. It's like I am slowly becoming consumed by all these thoughts. All the 'what ifs' and 'why is this happening to mes' and 'I should just become the backgrounds'. And I need to release them all somewhere. I need to talk to the bestfriend. I need a hug from the boyfriend.I need to get over my ball phobia.I need my hair to stop leaving me.I need more time to sleep.May be I need to stop needing things to happen for me.Fuck it.Labels: my fairy godmother has left the building
