The longer I keep this blog, the lesser the compulsion/urge to methodically describe the events of my life, let alone what I do every single day. There has been some growth, maybe maturity on my part, in what and how I write. Even so, I still cringe and feel no small amount of embarrassment by what I've written before. ICK. So blah and childish and overly dramatic. But I still feel a little comfort that I have some place I can vent at. I mean, friends will lose sympathy or the need to assuage you when you've told them the same problems a hundred times over, despite your need to get rid of it. So a place to write crap to get it out of your system lest it drives you mental is such no small thing.

AY2010/2011 is about to commence. I have no idea when exactly, which doesn't speak well at all. School is a cause of a lot of mixed emotions. 1. I like to learn new stuff, BUT I don't like tests, papers and other academic hum-drum. 2. Going to school means I get to put off working, which is great. BUT school doesn't last forever, and time passes way too fast. 3. I like the socialisation and camaraderie of school BUT kiasu-ism in the student body has only made me more indifferent and resentful. (I is anger). See what I mean? And for someone who thinks a little too much about certain things, I am going nuts sorting my emotions out.

If only I had an unlimited spending powers, I would be so happy and all my problems wouldn't seem so bad.

Anyways, since that isn't going to ever happen, I should just move on. The hair is incredibly short now. I actually wanted to shave it off, but Wei'an's timely message stopped me and made me reconsider. I guess cutting my hair is a coping mechanism for me to feel better. And this time, it was about the way I felt about myself. I think Soko's song might have something to do with the decision about my hair. Another momentous event, I went for a run yesterday. Exactly 6 months since my last proper run. Felt really good. It was 5 in the morning, and other than the cold, it felt like I was running at night. I said hi to the pavements I haven't pounded in months and asked if they missed me. I was definitely high on adrenaline and endorphins.

It's 3.46am now and I have to be up by 7am. I think I'll just stay up the entire night.